Hypocrite
I always frown down upon humanity, always shake my head and say “shame on you for being so atrocious”. I see all of their lies. I see what they try to hide. I see their loneliness and sorrow. I also see they do nothing to change it. Their actions are meaningless. Their lives revolve around such frivolities that it is impossible not to just turn around and walk away. Disgusted in them I am forced to be with them. It’s not enough for me to observe them. No, I have to endure the torture of living with them. They say we can’t live without each other. I say we can. Who needs them? Who needs the daily pressure of having to conform to the mainstream or face exile? Who needs the company of selfish imbeciles? Who would want that? They are so desperate for love and attention that they would endure such things. Why can’t they see that they don’t need those things they want so badly? They are vile. They have no morals. They have a twisted sense of right and wrong.
But am I so different? I see some of their traits in me. I lie to avoid complications. I have my own disgusting secrets, secrets I would kill to keep safely hidden. I manipulate the ones closest to me to get what I want. I hurt people needlessly, and then accuse them of hurting themselves. I laugh at their pain. I play the helpless, innocent victim to cover up the stupid mistakes I make. My mistakes alone are ones that could be easily fixed, or at the least explained. But no, I have to make it bigger than it is. I am a master procrastinator. I put things off and often end up not doing many things I say I would. I let down my friends and family for reasons that aren’t even worth mentioning. I say I want to change, but do I really? I don’t take any actions to better myself. I’m so selfish. All I do is to benefit myself, to make myself more comfortable, to help myself advance.
I say they are bad, like I am not one of them and I am exempt. But in reality, I’m the worst of them all. I am no one. I should sink into the shadows. I should disappear and save humanity my meaningless ratings…